Living together is supposed to be an amazing time in anyone's life. It's a moment where you've decided that you want to share your life with someone. Maybe not your whole life, but the day to day. The real stuff. You want to show them that you never want to be apart from one another. It's not just about you being together for short periods of time, on dates, where you can play a part and give them your best. You want them to truly experience you. For all that you are. And isn't that the purest form of love there is.
It's unfortunate then, that you, are an asshole.